Spokesperson

Yesterday I weighed in at Jenny Craig. It was great to see Monique, my consultant. Monique has a gentle manner, her true empathy is hidden behind a her mild personality at first glance. After a couple of visits I realized that she remembers everything I tell her and had even thought about how I was doing on a day off. That blew me away! I'm thrilled to have her as my consultant. My weigh in was very successful! I lost 2 pounds. I now weigh 153.0 (naked at home) I have been trying to get to this weight sinse I was 22. This was the lowest weight I had ever been in my adult life. Everything thought of hope and success that I have stored in my memory banks is tied to this weight. I remember being in love, engaged and losing weight for my wedding. It was an exciting time for me. Being here now is emotional. I feel successful but still with the sense of want, a want that has been burning inside me for all of my life. To get to goal. I never surpassed 153.0. In fact I ended up gaining 15 pounds back before my wedding. I never got to the finish line, just the alter. Here I am, that same weight but a different threshold. My goal, 135. Then.... We will see. See if that weight fits. I need to try it on, like a beautiful gown. Wear it around, take a look in the mirror and then decide if I need a smaller size. All these memories I'm having. Some good and plenty that are not. Do I have anxiety? Naaaaa, I did. In the past anxiety is something that I know all to well. I have a new approach now. One that is driven by knowing that I am and that I will be successful. You see, I have learned that "we create the life we believe we deserve." And I believe that I deserve the success that I that I create. I believe in Jenny Craig's program, it is such a perfect tool for me to use to achieve what I want. To feel good, to look good and to even put the past behind me. The past, the continued struggle to wriggle out of the fat body and into me. The real me. Everyday I am uncovering me and I love it. What excites me most is that I believe without a doubt that I will make my goal and that I can help other people make theirs too. I know what it's like to feel the frustration and endure countless failures. I know what it's like to be judged ridiculed and feel like a complete failure. I know how hard it can be. But I promise you, I promise, you deserve what you want and you can have it. You can! I am down 12 pounds after getting stuck for months after weightloss surgery. I was following the rules, eating protein first, drinking water... I was stuck and getting mad, even scared. I altered my body so that I could finally reach a healthy weight and their I was Starting to gain. Panic set in. I went round and round in my mind of what I had done, joined a weighloss surgery support group, searched online for different pints of views and tweaks to diet and exercise. I would lose a 10th of a pound maybe a half and then be up 3 pounds the next week. This went on for 5 months before I took charge. I went home to Jenny December 11th. Started the plan on December 13th. I weighed in at 166.2 yesterday, I weighed in at 154.2 in 6 weeks. I have never before believed in myself so much thank you Jenny Craig for giving me the plan.

Budge the pudge Jenny Craig

So here I am, years later and with the same old problem,even though that problem is getting better. The problem is, to put it boldly, my FAT! I've been fat since I was little. Not crazy fat just stocky, until my teen years and gigantic boobs spouted from my chest, embarrassed by them I covered up And ate up too. Now I'm 53 and still fighting the battle of he bulge and finally attempting to write this blog that I actually started in 2009. Yes, I wrote the description for it and title and then...nothing. I wanna be like Val. Who's Val? what Val do you know in 2009 that is cute as hell and looks fabulous in a bikini and at the ripe old age of 50. Valerie Bertinelli, that's who. You see I was just in the throws of Jenny Craig adds and had high hopes that together her and Kirsty Ally could inspire me to budge the pudge (maybe that's what I should call this blog). Well, they did, for a while, that is. I went on Jenny Craig, ate the food and lost weight, a lot of weight. I went from 235 to 192. It was easy, the plan was great, the food was delicious and I was motivated. Then I wasn't. It's like I hit a wall. A mental one. One that said you don't want to go there. Suddenly I found excuses as to why I couldn't do Jenny Craig anymore. Money, turned out to be the best excuse. When I look back, that's really all it was. Yes, buying the food can be on the pricy side but the plan is workable. The consultant can change things around to make it more affordable, and my counsultant, Laura was a sweetheart and a pro. Someone I really trusted! Nope, it was me. somewhere, deep inside me I hit the stop button. That was 7 years ago and somethings have changed. Still trying to bugde the pudge but this time I've got the upper hand. I went home. Home to Jenny and I sure am glad I did! After gaining all the way up to 242, gastric sleeve surgery, and stall. I went home and I'm staying. So this is my blog. I still want to look like Val (and Kirsty) and I'll tell you how I'm doing...next time. I just won't wait 7 years to tell you.